it's almost 3 am. I'm still awake. I can't seem to focus.

Just got duped..somewhat.

Time is definitely not my friend now. I'm really getting worried. But really feeling tired now though. Today class started at 9.30 am and since yesterday class was canceled so we were told that it will be replaced today!

ken shongen the gorilla

So...we did our work, after class 7 pm. Including dinner lar...went to class..waited until 8pm and we start wondering whether he forgot our class or we got conned.

evonne chua the banana lover

Ask someone, called the lecturer and he said he wasn't told that there was a replacement class today!!!!

luppy our daddy..

aiks aiks..



I'm just telling myself..

suffer first

suffer first

suffer first

I actually really want to go Archidex and also Cheer 09! But I don't think can already lo. Not going back also..I hope the parents would come and see me. 2 weeks didn't see the family already, a bit the sad...

me who got nicknamed as toilet seat cover cuz of my previous hairstyle. -__-" don't ask me why...i don't understand the relation to it also

Friends are playing the game called Hotel 626. -___-" scary! Just watched how my friends play..

I'm sleepy now!!! how?!?! Suffer first!!!

part of the surprise gift for annie. since her bday is over i can finally show the pics

BYE!

I got to go suffer now. hehe!

Round the Mulberry Bush

Yes! Finally get to log in to blogger. I've been trying since 7 something?

I feel so restless and excited just now. Already lack of sleep, plus "some" people have to surprise me by not telling me! hahaha. ISH!

Why have to give surprise leh? haha Don't know why I felt so excited also. ish ish ish..


A lot calmer now. I'm thinking how to stay awake tonight at try to get my work done!

Want to know why? Because we had one of the grandest birthday celebration ever! Our youngest sister,Annie's birthday was yesterday. Youngest really sayang the most lor, if only we had her celebration.
We put in so much effort to surprise her but basically all failed. sigh

Evonne already update about Annie's birthday. Can read it from her blog ..hehe

xoxo

I'm not feeling as homesick as the last time I stayed back here. It feels kind of normal now just added the housemates and minus the family members. So the feeling is familiar. I'm comfortable with it. the feeling is the same. hehe

Morning.

maybe I'm bored. Just suddenly have the urge to post something. I don't know what..Just something.

my plan of doing work and sleeping late totally backfired.

Trying to be calm and not feel guilty about it.

Heal the world, make it a better place (sing)

Just heard that Micheal Jackson had passed away on the radio yesterday. Shocking! Evonne and I thought they were joking. I forgotten how much I used to enjoy Micheal Jackson songs. After his era has passed I just didn't bother about him.

I remember always opening that cupboard and taking out his album and looking through the pictures. I remembered asking my mum about him and knowing that he is the King of Pop. Always wondering why was he the King of Pop and why Elvis was the King of Rock. Hearing about his death brought back pieces of memories of my childhood. I remember hearing one of his song in kindergarten!

I might buy his album just to remember what songs he used to sing. Farah Fawcett died on the same day. Just now I heard from my mum that someone we knew had passed away too.

Sigh.

History again today. Mr Bear always target me, today I thought I'd sit on the inner part, next to the wall then maybe he won't notice me much. WRONG WRONG WRONG!

He ask me a question and I gave him the correct answer and he said it was wrong and then said it was right. -________-" when my shirt got some white powder from the wall, my friends told me and helped me remove them he called my name again. -__-" and when Jah asked who was our current prime minister and she said the correct answer and I was just giving the "yes! thats correct! " look..he said my name and ask me to keep quiet.. geezzz

We have some of the weirdest people in MIA I think.

One of our lecturer is resigning..Happy? Sad?

I wonder who is going to be our department's latest lecturer? I wonder is that position is jinx..you know just like in Harry Potter. The lecturer for the defence of dark arts always never last. Just like our college now. The last lecturer left cuz of too many complaints which I think is the cause of this one too. hmmmm yeah..maybe it's jinx.

We're hoping it will be some cute lecturer..kekeke.

I'm not going back again this weekend. Need to catch up on work. Next weekend is the most happening weekend!!!

Philharmonic Ochestra!

Archidex exhibition!

Cheer '09!!!

and Jia Von's place also!

ALL ON THE SAME WEEKEND T_T I doubt we can make it...cuz the very next few days is our submission. sigh...

I really really really really want to watch Transformers. No spoilers please. It's going to rain here and I am addicted to pet society again. I don't know why. Nothing interesting about it also. Brain getting more and more boring.

btw...yesterday..was the first time I pretended to be a "prospective" student. haha we went to check out Dasein College. =P pretended that we stayed around the place and that we just finish our SPM. haha!

Their cafe is so syiok. Very nice ambience and the college design is very young and in..but I like our college. It's more homey and has a lot more character! 40 yrs worth of character!!!

bye!

I'm afraid I'll put an end to it and things won't be so pretty anymore.

getting sick of these.

getting tired of it.

it ain't funny honey...

many times, thoughts run through my mind. Thoughts about everything. Things I don't speak out does not mean it's not in my mind. Wondering whether other people think about the things I thought about.

I don't say much.

One day, will I explode?

One day, will I turn into someone unimaginable?

One day, will I be someone who I thought I would never be or someone I would never want to be?

questions, questions and more questions.

People whispering here and there. You are always there. You want to know. You know you won't know. Nobody bothers. Nobody cares.

So should you bother? should you care?

I just ignore. By wanting to know, by asking...it might seem desperate. But then..do I really care?

I may not care. Sometimes I don't give a shit so what are you going to do about it? But I can't always act that way, I may seem cold. But I don't think I am. People just don't get it.

others may care..but care in what sense? I may not seem to care about I care a lot about other things.

others may care but they don't care about a lot of things.

It's all so confusing. I wish someone can just tell me. Just like a yes - no question or a right - wrong answer. Things would be so much more simpler!!!

Am I always picking up after people? I tend to feel that I do.I take it seriously about the things that I think it's important. I feel selfish...I feel ppl think that I'm selfish.. you may think I'm writing all these bullshit..sounds fake yada yada. Oh well..

But it's not my intention to come of like that.

I don't know what to think now. I just feel disorientated... Everyday is becoming less of a struggle and a battle. But at times...my will just tumbles and it comes back. I have to make myself go against it. That is living. Living is tough.

you can ignore all these. just one of those days you know? =)

xoxo